1 00:00:30,000 --> 00:00:32,719 Why is there love when it hurts so much? 2 00:00:33,420 --> 00:00:35,741 Why is everything over before it starts? 3 00:00:36,539 --> 00:00:39,420 Holger, I know I'll never see you again. 4 00:00:40,100 --> 00:00:42,420 What am I supposed to do? 5 00:00:44,759 --> 00:00:46,679 What am I supposed to write in my diary? 6 00:00:47,299 --> 00:00:48,299 The 20th of November. 7 00:00:48,880 --> 00:00:51,840 I've lost what was so far the most important thing in the world to me. 8 00:00:52,460 --> 00:00:54,140 I'm 17 and unhappy. 9 00:00:54,979 --> 00:00:56,060 What else am I supposed to write? 10 00:00:56,700 --> 00:00:57,979 It's so pointless. 11 00:01:00,979 --> 00:01:04,519 What this love has given us, 12 00:01:04,760 --> 00:01:12,915 What they've done with our lives, the answer, it's gonna give away from us. 13 00:01:44,211 --> 00:01:48,268 Young Love, you gave us so good 14 00:01:52,469 --> 00:01:57,569 Hot Love, the desire to see you again 15 00:02:00,119 --> 00:02:06,959 Young Love, the bond of love is broken. 16 00:02:09,020 --> 00:02:15,580 Hot Love, because we both have to part. 17 00:02:17,379 --> 00:02:20,520 The hope that lived in us, 18 00:02:20,719 --> 00:02:24,719 The happiness you've been striving for, 19 00:02:24,379 --> 00:02:32,199 It's all our fault that everything is now broken. 20 00:02:33,180 --> 00:02:41,240 The love we committed, what's left of her? 21 00:02:41,878 --> 00:02:48,032 It was over, it had barely begun. 22 00:02:58,032 --> 00:03:03,409 Young love, you've given us so much luck. 23 00:03:08,000 --> 00:03:13,939 Have a desire to see you again. 24 00:03:14,759 --> 00:03:19,599 Young Love, all love is the rift. March 12th, Sunday. 25 00:03:20,560 --> 00:03:22,740 I don't know if I should laugh or be serious. 26 00:03:23,639 --> 00:03:25,599 It was all a little weird this morning. 27 00:03:26,500 --> 00:03:28,599 I didn't want to talk to anyone about it right now. 28 00:03:29,460 --> 00:03:33,879 But you, dear diary, I can trust. 29 00:08:04,759 --> 00:08:06,899 Elke, how much longer do you want to sleep? 30 00:08:07,379 --> 00:08:08,480 We'll be waiting for you with breakfast. 31 00:08:09,040 --> 00:08:12,019 It's all right, I'll be right there. 32 00:08:23,699 --> 00:08:27,379 I don't know if I had a dream or what it was. 33 00:08:27,560 --> 00:08:30,279 I woke up in this weird cripple. 34 00:08:30,740 --> 00:08:33,059 That crippling feeling I've felt many times. 35 00:08:34,059 --> 00:08:36,200 For the first time, I can remember exactly, 36 00:08:36,500 --> 00:08:39,200 I noticed it at the turn of the hour on the climbing board. 37 00:08:39,080 --> 00:08:42,200 Then it kept coming back, especially in the morning. 38 00:08:42,699 --> 00:08:44,879 And although it's such a pleasant feeling, 39 00:08:45,000 --> 00:08:47,452 I didn't dare to wake it up myself. 40 00:08:47,952 --> 00:08:48,330 I'm here today. 41 00:08:49,330 --> 00:08:51,099 Was that right? 42 00:08:58,038 --> 00:09:04,345 If the stupid referee had given the 11m, HSV would have won 2-1. 43 00:09:04,345 --> 00:09:08,227 Shit, he's back in the table at number five. 44 00:09:08,523 --> 00:09:11,460 You always have to read the paper at breakfast on Sundays. 45 00:09:11,538 --> 00:09:15,272 You know I can't do two things on the weekend. 46 00:09:15,472 --> 00:09:21,026 I'm gonna go to the sports show and the football news in the paper, or else I'm gonna do whatever the family wants. 47 00:09:21,328 --> 00:09:24,762 Besides, your daughter hasn't shown up for breakfast yet. 48 00:09:24,862 --> 00:09:26,929 So I can still read the paper. 49 00:09:26,929 --> 00:09:27,418 You're a fathead. 50 00:09:41,000 --> 00:09:44,519 Here you are, my master. 51 00:09:47,480 --> 00:09:49,179 I'll see you tomorrow, Patz. 52 00:09:49,779 --> 00:09:51,340 That you're finally cooking from the feathers. 53 00:09:51,480 --> 00:09:52,779 Tomorrow, Mum, tomorrow. 54 00:09:53,160 --> 00:09:55,519 You'll be able to sleep a little longer on Sunday. 55 00:09:56,060 --> 00:09:57,580 Hey, hey, excuse me. 56 00:09:57,759 --> 00:09:58,240 I'm all right. 57 00:09:58,500 --> 00:10:01,659 But you're always the first at breakfast. 58 00:10:02,139 --> 00:10:02,659 - I know. 59 00:10:02,139 --> 00:10:04,020 - Thank you. - Thank you. 60 00:10:05,000 --> 00:10:07,539 You were in bed at 10 last night. 61 00:10:07,739 --> 00:10:11,159 You've, by the way, even given up on the late movie. 62 00:10:11,159 --> 00:10:13,122 So I can tell you, that was a force. 63 00:10:13,122 --> 00:10:14,949 You should have seen Christopher Lee. 64 00:10:14,949 --> 00:10:15,907 He was overwhelming. 65 00:10:15,907 --> 00:10:20,245 I almost thought the Pope and Mommy saw through me when they looked at me like that. 66 00:10:20,245 --> 00:10:23,213 I was almost certain that you couldn't notice anything like that. 67 00:10:23,213 --> 00:10:25,678 It's the bad conscience that makes you insecure. 68 00:10:26,259 --> 00:10:28,320 What a piece of crap. 69 00:10:28,860 --> 00:10:31,820 You do things like that in secret. 70 00:10:32,320 --> 00:10:33,480 It's all shit. 71 00:10:36,399 --> 00:10:37,759 I'm kind of happy about that. 72 00:10:38,480 --> 00:10:40,559 I feel much more free since this morning. 73 00:10:41,399 --> 00:10:43,700 I may not even be able to describe that feeling. 74 00:10:44,399 --> 00:10:47,725 And maybe happiness isn't the right word. 75 00:10:47,725 --> 00:10:51,175 A blind man walks in front of my window on the street. 76 00:10:51,175 --> 00:10:52,900 He must be unhappy. 77 00:10:52,900 --> 00:10:57,460 He may never have seen, but he can feel like I do. 78 00:10:58,460 --> 00:11:00,040 Is that perfect? 79 00:11:02,040 --> 00:11:04,129 There's so much I don't know yet. 80 00:11:04,429 --> 00:11:07,440 But you probably can't know everything at 15. 81 00:11:08,659 --> 00:11:10,200 I'm happy. 82 00:11:11,200 --> 00:11:14,320 I feel like today is the day I started living. 83 00:11:19,259 --> 00:11:21,360 What's with the bad conscience? 84 00:11:26,200 --> 00:11:27,799 Why do you have a bad conscience? 85 00:11:27,960 --> 00:11:30,120 You had an orgasm, that's all. 86 00:11:30,539 --> 00:11:33,259 I know that too, I've had an orgasm. 87 00:11:33,600 --> 00:11:34,759 But that's not the point. 88 00:11:35,379 --> 00:11:39,000 I'm just pissed off that I spent the whole day thinking about it yesterday. 89 00:11:39,539 --> 00:11:41,539 This is bullshit. You're gonna have to get used to it. 90 00:11:41,899 --> 00:11:43,960 You should finally sleep with a boy. 91 00:11:44,179 --> 00:11:45,259 It helps a lot. 92 00:11:50,159 --> 00:11:51,559 Monday, March 13th. 93 00:11:52,059 --> 00:11:53,559 I'm with Ellen on the school break. 94 00:11:53,639 --> 00:11:55,000 I'm talking to my classmate. 95 00:11:55,580 --> 00:11:57,120 She thinks my thoughts are silly. 96 00:11:57,600 --> 00:11:58,940 Since when are thoughts stupid? 97 00:11:59,460 --> 00:12:00,879 Ellen is also a year older. 98 00:12:01,340 --> 00:12:03,460 She must have a lot of experience in these things. 99 00:12:05,360 --> 00:12:07,539 Are you crazy? 100 00:12:07,539 --> 00:12:09,334 - Don't make that noise. 101 00:12:09,834 --> 00:12:12,000 What the hell is this? 102 00:12:18,000 --> 00:12:21,718 I mean, you're gonna move, and then it's gonna be a lot easier. 103 00:12:22,120 --> 00:12:25,320 Please don't, I don't want to do this. 104 00:12:25,740 --> 00:12:27,980 I'm sure it'll do you good. 105 00:12:53,300 --> 00:12:54,980 Please, Ellen, stop. 106 00:12:55,000 --> 00:12:55,799 Come on, have a seat. 107 00:12:56,000 --> 00:12:58,120 I want to see your face. 108 00:12:59,759 --> 00:13:01,759 I want you to have one. 109 00:13:26,000 --> 00:13:28,479 You've got your softness, the skin says. 110 00:14:57,000 --> 00:14:58,778 Let go! 111 00:15:17,600 --> 00:15:22,025 I'm so into you. 112 00:15:36,025 --> 00:15:38,399 I'm not responsible for this. I have to. 113 00:15:46,279 --> 00:15:48,759 Every time I'm hot, I get it. 114 00:15:51,419 --> 00:15:52,620 You should go. 115 00:15:52,860 --> 00:16:30,679 No, I can't, it's almost as good as an orgasm. 116 00:16:31,559 --> 00:16:34,000 Fuck, you fucking math. 117 00:16:34,159 --> 00:16:37,940 The Pauk has got us to write a paper without notice. 118 00:16:40,720 --> 00:16:41,960 I thought you were gonna move me. 119 00:16:42,139 --> 00:16:43,019 Here you go. 120 00:16:43,239 --> 00:16:44,159 Thank you very much. 121 00:16:44,419 --> 00:16:45,980 What do you mean, "transferred"? 122 00:16:46,359 --> 00:16:49,860 Don't think about it, I don't owe anyone any credit. 123 00:16:50,099 --> 00:16:51,600 Yeah, yeah, that's all right. 124 00:16:57,019 --> 00:16:59,879 Look at the blind man over there. 125 00:17:00,240 --> 00:17:03,059 I see. 126 00:17:03,359 --> 00:17:05,700 What about this? 127 00:17:06,160 --> 00:17:07,619 I saw that one the other day. 128 00:17:08,019 --> 00:17:09,339 There are many blind people in this town. 129 00:17:09,880 --> 00:17:11,800 I've done it, but this one's different. 130 00:17:12,380 --> 00:17:14,779 What do you think, if he's unhappy? 131 00:17:15,020 --> 00:17:16,339 It could be. 132 00:17:16,559 --> 00:17:17,799 Others are unhappy too. 133 00:17:18,119 --> 00:17:20,980 You're not? 134 00:17:21,960 --> 00:17:23,420 Don't get caught up in it. 135 00:17:23,619 --> 00:17:25,839 What do you mean, caught? 136 00:17:26,200 --> 00:17:28,920 Are you coming to the disco tomorrow night? 137 00:17:29,500 --> 00:17:31,920 What if my parents don't mind? 138 00:17:31,440 --> 00:17:33,660 That's a lot of bullshit. 139 00:17:34,700 --> 00:17:36,039 You'll be able to walk away twice a week. 140 00:17:36,099 --> 00:17:39,359 I'll be right there. 141 00:17:39,900 --> 00:17:40,980 April 18th. 142 00:17:41,619 --> 00:17:43,259 Lothar is very strange these days. 143 00:17:43,079 --> 00:17:45,799 We've known each other for over six months. 144 00:17:46,099 --> 00:17:51,920 At first he was very funny and bleed a lot, but now he's become calm and thoughtful. 145 00:17:52,000 --> 00:17:58,240 He likes me, I know, but I'm not sure I feel anything for him. 146 00:18:00,000 --> 00:18:06,656 I like to meet him, go dancing with him, but otherwise, when he kisses me, it's not much different than when he gives me a cotton kiss. 147 00:18:06,856 --> 00:18:13,901 I'm sure this is all stupid, and I think I might like him, but he probably wants to sleep with me. 148 00:18:14,111 --> 00:18:20,504 That's why he's so weird, he feels like I don't want him and he doesn't know what to do. 149 00:18:20,824 --> 00:18:24,687 I wonder if Ellen's right when she thinks I should sleep with a boy. 150 00:18:24,687 --> 00:18:26,660 I've done it twice with Ellen. 151 00:18:27,180 --> 00:18:28,500 But I think this is stupid. 152 00:18:29,339 --> 00:18:30,559 It's much better alone. 153 00:18:31,599 --> 00:18:33,400 I feel happy every time after that. 154 00:18:34,740 --> 00:18:36,619 I wonder if I should sleep with Lothar. 155 00:18:37,339 --> 00:18:39,960 I don't know if that's right. 156 00:18:40,838 --> 00:18:43,442 And I don't know if I want to. 157 00:19:48,542 --> 00:19:52,559 Oh, yeah, oh, that's nice. 158 00:21:50,538 --> 00:21:52,559 Yes, you are wonderful. 159 00:22:53,819 --> 00:22:55,559 Oh, I'm such a horn. 160 00:22:55,920 --> 00:22:56,319 I'm sorry, too. 161 00:22:56,640 --> 00:22:58,220 The dick is doing so well. 162 00:22:58,700 --> 00:22:59,640 Do you feel it right? 163 00:22:59,900 --> 00:23:00,640 Oh, and if. 164 00:23:01,119 --> 00:23:02,339 I'm so hot. 165 00:23:02,779 --> 00:23:03,400 I'm just going to be a bum. 166 00:25:10,859 --> 00:25:49,000 Oh, slow down, honey, I'm not ready yet. 167 00:27:33,000 --> 00:27:36,599 5th of November, my dear diary, 168 00:27:37,000 --> 00:27:40,540 I know I've neglected you every summer, like every year. 169 00:27:41,099 --> 00:27:43,640 The holidays were boring like the last few years. 170 00:27:43,578 --> 00:27:48,800 It's the same people, the same conversations on the campsite. 171 00:27:49,384 --> 00:27:53,758 Then my hospital stay came along, it was really fucked up. 172 00:27:54,272 --> 00:27:56,838 Lothar was happy to see me again. 173 00:27:56,988 --> 00:27:59,938 I can't tell you if I missed him. 174 00:28:15,939 --> 00:28:17,039 Don't you want to shop? 175 00:28:17,919 --> 00:28:21,919 I don't want to be so busy today, I've got to be careful with my legs. 176 00:28:22,718 --> 00:28:26,441 I understand. 177 00:28:31,741 --> 00:28:33,560 Sometimes I don't know if you like going away with me. 178 00:28:33,939 --> 00:28:36,863 Sure, would I be here? 179 00:28:34,863 --> 00:28:39,547 Sure, but I mean, why are you being so repulsive? 180 00:28:39,647 --> 00:28:43,908 I'm not Ellen, I'm just different. 181 00:28:44,028 --> 00:28:47,800 You can walk away without getting killed or anything. 182 00:28:48,000 --> 00:28:49,039 Now, don't get too high. 183 00:28:51,699 --> 00:28:53,027 I really like you. 184 00:29:22,027 --> 00:29:23,388 Hey, it's really good. 185 00:29:23,588 --> 00:29:26,197 Oh, now, you're exaggerating, you know that, right? 186 00:29:40,259 --> 00:29:42,240 Well, there's something going on. 187 00:29:42,500 --> 00:29:43,680 You or me? 188 00:29:44,560 --> 00:29:45,960 Probably with the two of us. 189 00:29:47,240 --> 00:29:49,966 Oh, the bell. 190 00:30:20,966 --> 00:30:22,420 Stop it, I don't want to do this. 191 00:30:23,740 --> 00:30:26,220 What's the matter with you? 192 00:30:35,579 --> 00:30:37,879 Don't worry about it, it'll be over soon. 193 00:30:38,100 --> 00:30:41,000 Understand one, the women. 194 00:30:46,060 --> 00:30:48,279 What's the matter with you? 195 00:30:48,319 --> 00:30:50,540 It's my business. 196 00:30:50,739 --> 00:30:53,620 Look, you're 15 years old, you're not a kid anymore, and neither is Lothar. 197 00:30:53,939 --> 00:30:56,180 I think it's mean how you treat him. 198 00:30:56,360 --> 00:31:00,319 What's mean by mean? 199 00:31:00,779 --> 00:31:03,560 No, but you've known each other for so long. 200 00:31:03,799 --> 00:31:05,800 And he likes you, you know that. 201 00:31:06,020 --> 00:31:09,040 Either you break up with him or you're nicer to him. 202 00:31:09,580 --> 00:31:11,800 I don't think that's the way it's going to work. 203 00:31:12,019 --> 00:31:14,779 He didn't deserve that. 204 00:31:58,779 --> 00:31:59,899 What's the matter with you? 205 00:32:00,059 --> 00:32:02,839 Wait a second. 206 00:32:07,839 --> 00:32:09,700 Is there anything I can do for you? 207 00:32:09,939 --> 00:32:12,040 No, no, no, thank you, my child. 208 00:32:12,959 --> 00:32:15,660 Have you been standing here a long time? 209 00:32:15,819 --> 00:32:18,220 It's as cold as ever this time of year. 210 00:32:19,120 --> 00:32:22,839 I'm here every night, and I'm picked up. 211 00:32:23,959 --> 00:32:25,720 Is everything really okay? 212 00:32:26,319 --> 00:32:27,079 That's it. 213 00:32:28,379 --> 00:32:29,579 My sister's coming to get me. 214 00:32:29,680 --> 00:32:30,740 She's coming from work. 215 00:32:31,879 --> 00:32:32,620 Thank you, my child. 216 00:32:34,079 --> 00:32:34,680 - Good night, please. 217 00:32:36,339 --> 00:32:36,720 - I know. 218 00:32:43,019 --> 00:32:44,360 What did you want from him? 219 00:32:45,000 --> 00:32:46,759 I know he's unhappy. 220 00:32:47,660 --> 00:32:48,360 That's all I got. 221 00:32:48,579 --> 00:32:50,090 - I'm going to get it. 222 00:33:17,090 --> 00:33:19,259 I'm sorry about that earlier. 223 00:33:20,000 --> 00:33:21,259 What do you mean, sorry? 224 00:33:21,860 --> 00:33:23,300 Please, stop being angry. 225 00:33:24,079 --> 00:33:26,100 - I'm going to get it. 226 00:33:30,279 --> 00:33:32,220 Come in with me. 227 00:33:32,400 --> 00:33:33,904 If you want to. 228 00:33:49,904 --> 00:33:51,000 We need to be quiet. 229 00:38:02,000 --> 00:38:05,720 Lothar is happy. 230 00:38:06,000 --> 00:38:09,840 I didn't feel much, but it made me happy. 231 00:38:10,840 --> 00:38:14,740 I don't know if I wanted to make someone else happy. 232 00:38:17,799 --> 00:38:21,009 I wonder if the blind man is home. 233 00:38:35,179 --> 00:38:41,538 Friday, November 7th, I was at the mall with my mom, and we rarely go shopping together. 234 00:38:42,000 --> 00:38:45,898 Mommy's in a rush to get the business and can't get enough. 235 00:38:46,339 --> 00:38:49,980 After that, she's always exhausted and needs to get some rest in a café. 236 00:38:50,040 --> 00:38:52,360 For cake and beans. 237 00:38:52,240 --> 00:38:55,639 But I wanted to talk to her today about my problems with Lothar. 238 00:38:57,058 --> 00:38:59,997 There was no opportunity at home. 239 00:39:34,997 --> 00:39:40,440 I keep thinking about the shoes, and I wonder if they're too expensive. 240 00:39:41,580 --> 00:39:43,059 We should have looked around again. 241 00:39:43,720 --> 00:39:45,460 I probably would have gotten it cheaper elsewhere. 242 00:39:45,559 --> 00:39:46,299 Or what do you mean? 243 00:39:46,439 --> 00:39:50,720 Listen, Mom, I... I want to talk to you about something. 244 00:39:50,880 --> 00:39:53,120 But what, honey, are you stealing money? 245 00:39:53,319 --> 00:39:55,620 You could have bought yourself something today. 246 00:39:55,800 --> 00:39:58,899 No, Mom, that's not the point. 247 00:39:59,279 --> 00:40:00,700 It's about Lothar. 248 00:40:01,019 --> 00:40:02,919 Oh, Lothar, you see him every now and then. 249 00:40:04,500 --> 00:40:07,220 You should invite him to our house sometime tonight. 250 00:40:07,800 --> 00:40:08,399 I mean, invite me. 251 00:40:08,759 --> 00:40:11,960 Oh, my God, I forgot the most important thing. 252 00:40:12,099 --> 00:40:13,620 We need a new tablecloth. 253 00:40:13,800 --> 00:40:16,559 Bergers are coming to visit this weekend. 254 00:40:16,840 --> 00:40:20,940 We'll have to get another hood and a tablecloth later. 255 00:40:21,039 --> 00:40:25,424 Do you think a boy is disappointed in a girl when she... 256 00:40:25,424 --> 00:40:28,080 I mean, if she doesn't do what he wants. 257 00:40:28,820 --> 00:40:31,080 You can't think about it that much, honey. 258 00:40:31,240 --> 00:40:32,059 It'll be all right. 259 00:40:32,779 --> 00:40:35,700 If only I knew what to do with the mountains this time. 260 00:40:37,159 --> 00:40:39,360 He's still going, but she's a little weird. 261 00:40:39,539 --> 00:40:40,419 You never know when you're with her. 262 00:40:43,879 --> 00:40:45,240 What's the matter? 263 00:40:46,379 --> 00:40:47,820 I'll be right back. 264 00:41:00,059 --> 00:41:03,059 If you want to get to the other side, I'd like to help you. 265 00:41:03,620 --> 00:41:07,935 Yes, thank you. 266 00:41:18,303 --> 00:41:22,329 Thank you, my child, we've met before, haven't we? 267 00:41:22,517 --> 00:41:23,406 Yeah, how do you know that? 268 00:41:23,606 --> 00:41:26,325 Oh, I have a good memory for voices. 269 00:41:26,725 --> 00:41:31,598 There are some you never want to hear again and others you're happy about. 270 00:41:32,578 --> 00:41:34,868 I wish you luck, my child. 271 00:42:00,268 --> 00:42:02,418 I feel like you're a little confused today. 272 00:42:03,039 --> 00:42:04,919 So, you were gonna tell me something. 273 00:42:05,000 --> 00:42:08,057 No, forget it, it's nothing. 274 00:42:27,501 --> 00:42:31,377 Saturday, September 15th, party at Ellen's. 275 00:42:31,580 --> 00:42:33,120 Her parents went on vacation. 276 00:42:33,620 --> 00:42:36,000 It's the first time Ellen's been allowed to stay here alone. 277 00:42:36,620 --> 00:42:38,879 I feel like she's using it shamelessly. 278 00:42:39,360 --> 00:42:40,419 But that's their business. 279 00:42:41,340 --> 00:42:43,980 For my parents and me, the holiday this year has gone. 280 00:42:44,559 --> 00:42:47,500 Dad's out of work, his company's out of business. 281 00:42:48,339 --> 00:42:50,819 It wasn't so bad for me, finally not camping. 282 00:42:51,380 --> 00:42:53,299 I've met with Lothar more often. 283 00:42:54,019 --> 00:42:55,559 I slept with him a few times. 284 00:42:56,480 --> 00:42:57,680 It didn't give me much. 285 00:42:58,680 --> 00:43:00,740 Somehow I imagined it all differently. 286 00:43:01,799 --> 00:43:03,740 I guess I did it for his sake. 287 00:43:04,619 --> 00:43:08,039 At first he was happy, but now he's changed. 288 00:43:08,759 --> 00:43:10,220 A little colder for me. 289 00:43:11,339 --> 00:43:12,700 I feel happy, though. 290 00:43:13,599 --> 00:43:14,480 Not because of Lothar. 291 00:43:15,279 --> 00:43:16,819 I've been 16 for 14 days. 292 00:43:17,519 --> 00:43:18,400 Time is running out. 293 00:43:19,160 --> 00:43:20,900 I'll be a grown man soon, according to the paper. 294 00:43:27,159 --> 00:43:30,660 Hey, what's up, you wanna sleep in your corner? 295 00:43:31,240 --> 00:43:32,640 I'd like to make a box number with you. 296 00:43:33,000 --> 00:43:35,140 I guess you find yourself irresistible. 297 00:43:35,099 --> 00:43:40,380 Of course, I break the hearts of the proudest women, including yours. 298 00:43:41,619 --> 00:43:42,234 - Wait a minute. - What? 299 00:43:54,634 --> 00:43:56,538 How come you're so rarely seen at parties like this? 300 00:43:56,980 --> 00:43:58,380 I'm not that into parties. 301 00:43:58,819 --> 00:43:59,740 What are you up to? 302 00:43:59,838 --> 00:44:01,510 I'm sure not you. 303 00:44:16,910 --> 00:44:19,578 Oh, you two are so smart. 304 00:44:19,900 --> 00:44:20,599 You won't? 305 00:44:20,839 --> 00:44:21,920 It's none of your business. 306 00:44:25,039 --> 00:44:26,839 I bet she's not innocent anymore. 307 00:44:26,859 --> 00:44:27,579 Don't be shy. 308 00:44:35,259 --> 00:44:37,380 Don't you think there's so many people down here? 309 00:44:37,900 --> 00:44:39,220 Okay, let's go upstairs now. 310 00:44:39,640 --> 00:44:40,539 Come on, you know what? 311 00:44:40,819 --> 00:44:42,259 You don't have to tell me twice. 312 00:44:49,259 --> 00:44:50,859 Nightingale, I hear you climbing. 313 00:44:51,119 --> 00:44:52,440 I don't like to dance anymore. 314 00:44:52,779 --> 00:44:54,980 Hey, what the hell is this? 315 00:45:07,780 --> 00:45:09,400 Don't you want to watch the opera Floor? 316 00:45:09,779 --> 00:45:11,160 Oh, that's right. 317 00:45:11,679 --> 00:45:12,759 So, what are you waiting for? 318 00:45:12,919 --> 00:45:14,940 So, you're not my type. 319 00:45:15,099 --> 00:45:16,720 That's a good shit. 320 00:45:17,039 --> 00:45:18,200 What's the matter with you? 321 00:45:18,420 --> 00:45:21,339 Or do you like John Travolta, huh? 322 00:45:22,058 --> 00:45:25,185 No, Julia Richter does too. 323 00:45:34,785 --> 00:45:35,918 Thank you, lady. 324 00:45:36,019 --> 00:45:36,440 Oh, never. 325 00:45:45,640 --> 00:45:48,061 I'm just a little bored down here. 326 00:45:48,561 --> 00:45:49,978 I'm not really bored. 327 00:45:50,980 --> 00:45:51,619 Do you want to? 328 00:45:53,720 --> 00:45:55,440 We haven't been together in a long time. 329 00:45:56,180 --> 00:45:58,319 And now you want us to do it here, right? 330 00:45:59,720 --> 00:46:00,960 No, not down here. 331 00:46:01,599 --> 00:46:02,880 I don't want to be here at all. 332 00:46:03,140 --> 00:46:04,920 And besides, I can't command. 333 00:46:06,400 --> 00:46:09,000 Well, not that way. 334 00:46:12,440 --> 00:46:14,480 Well, all alone? 335 00:46:40,480 --> 00:46:41,240 Here you go. 336 00:46:41,640 --> 00:46:42,000 - Thank you. - Thank you. 337 00:46:43,779 --> 00:46:46,160 You make people feel like you've never been to a party. 338 00:46:47,220 --> 00:46:48,759 I'm sure not on one of those. 339 00:46:49,259 --> 00:46:51,000 Hey, what's going on? 340 00:46:51,779 --> 00:46:53,339 We're not in kindergarten here. 341 00:46:53,940 --> 00:46:55,759 A party like this is about other things. 342 00:46:56,420 --> 00:46:59,400 If you don't know that, you shouldn't be invited. 343 00:47:00,420 --> 00:47:01,519 What do you mean, Nina? 344 00:47:01,859 --> 00:47:03,660 Don't you want to go upstairs? 345 00:47:04,140 --> 00:47:04,839 Yes, come on, you know. 346 00:47:09,079 --> 00:47:10,779 Up, up and away. 347 00:47:13,140 --> 00:47:15,940 What's the matter, sister, am I being so unpleasant to you? 348 00:47:16,019 --> 00:47:17,140 That's not the point. 349 00:47:17,539 --> 00:47:18,019 Oh, no, you didn't. 350 00:47:18,259 --> 00:47:21,140 I think this is ridiculous. 351 00:47:21,680 --> 00:47:22,200 I mean, actually. 352 00:47:25,259 --> 00:47:27,079 What do you think they're doing up there? 353 00:47:27,779 --> 00:47:28,559 I don't care what you say. 354 00:47:29,319 --> 00:47:30,920 Don't you want to go check it out? 355 00:47:31,160 --> 00:47:31,539 - No, I'm not. 356 00:47:32,400 --> 00:47:33,480 So you're a coward too. 357 00:47:33,900 --> 00:47:35,039 I'm not a coward. 358 00:47:35,420 --> 00:47:38,759 All right, let's go check it out, it's free and no one's gonna hurt you. 359 00:47:41,619 --> 00:47:42,359 - I'm not going to. 360 00:47:45,380 --> 00:47:47,619 So, what? 361 00:47:50,480 --> 00:47:53,059 Let's try this. 362 00:48:03,539 --> 00:48:05,599 Don't worry, honey, I've seen this before. 363 00:48:05,878 --> 00:48:08,989 You can have a bed, everything is packed. 364 00:48:08,799 --> 00:48:10,579 Yeah, yeah, that's all right. 365 00:48:11,060 --> 00:48:12,479 And make sure everything works out perfectly. 366 00:48:12,491 --> 00:48:12,980 You asshole. 367 00:48:13,180 --> 00:48:15,079 It's a gift, my boy. 368 00:48:17,080 --> 00:48:18,260 Do we want to? 369 00:48:18,339 --> 00:48:20,040 No, I don't like it any more. 370 00:48:20,219 --> 00:48:22,960 Whoever says A, must say B. 371 00:48:23,000 --> 00:48:24,960 Come on, now. 372 00:48:44,000 --> 00:48:45,980 Hey, is the water warm? 373 00:48:46,059 --> 00:48:48,200 Sure, and everything else. 374 00:48:48,499 --> 00:48:50,820 Where else can you find a place? 375 00:48:51,000 --> 00:48:52,040 But always. 376 00:48:52,619 --> 00:48:55,180 What are you doing, running away? 377 00:48:55,519 --> 00:48:56,520 Let go of me. 378 00:48:56,559 --> 00:48:58,539 What do you think, I'm just using myself? 379 00:48:58,639 --> 00:49:00,160 I want you to let go of me. 380 00:49:02,059 --> 00:49:03,680 - It's a goat. 381 00:49:51,080 --> 00:49:53,440 You have a wet moose. 382 00:49:53,740 --> 00:49:59,739 I'm gonna get them so wet that they'll really slip out when I bump you later. 383 00:49:59,839 --> 00:50:01,440 Yes, it does. 384 00:50:23,000 --> 00:50:25,400 You have a beautiful tongue. 385 00:50:25,659 --> 00:50:28,079 Yeah, that's what's gonna get my stupid frontman. 386 00:50:32,420 --> 00:50:34,099 And she's got a hole. 387 00:50:34,138 --> 00:50:37,017 You'd rather go on a four-week vacation in there. 388 00:50:53,017 --> 00:50:55,537 You're gifted, you're really talented. 389 00:51:07,356 --> 00:51:08,776 That smells good. 390 00:51:43,776 --> 00:51:45,211 Come on, knock, I don't want you anymore. 391 00:51:45,011 --> 00:51:47,618 Hey, I want to lick you first. 392 00:51:56,619 --> 00:51:59,200 You gotta get right in, or I'm not gonna feel you. 393 00:52:09,760 --> 00:52:13,299 Yes, that's right. 394 00:52:20,019 --> 00:52:22,339 Let's get this thing going. 395 00:52:23,078 --> 00:52:24,809 That's how I get deep inside you. 396 00:52:35,809 --> 00:52:39,759 Oh, that's horny. 397 00:53:15,657 --> 00:53:16,681 I'll be right there. 398 00:53:37,600 --> 00:53:40,000 Taste of my precious juice. 399 00:54:06,559 --> 00:54:08,040 Are you ready soon? 400 00:54:08,299 --> 00:54:10,699 Just slowly, always calmly. 401 00:54:11,720 --> 00:54:14,975 You're supposed to enjoy these things. 402 00:54:37,751 --> 00:54:39,658 Oh, that was necessary. 403 00:54:46,819 --> 00:54:51,208 That makes for a soft, soft skin, my dear. 404 00:55:13,208 --> 00:55:14,795 Turn around. 405 00:55:18,795 --> 00:55:19,840 I'm finally here. 406 00:55:20,439 --> 00:55:22,719 - Why don't you hit me? 407 00:55:41,159 --> 00:55:42,560 I'm finally getting hit. 408 00:55:43,078 --> 00:55:46,172 I'm gonna have to sip some of your juice. 409 00:56:17,548 --> 00:56:19,593 Let's get this thing going. 410 00:56:44,593 --> 00:56:46,670 You got a strong cock? 411 00:56:46,670 --> 00:56:47,740 Oh, but of course, always. 412 00:56:47,939 --> 00:56:49,939 Come on, swing on it. 413 00:56:54,319 --> 00:56:56,039 Now, get in the wet. 414 00:56:59,919 --> 00:57:02,779 If the others are sloppy, good Pitt can still do it. 415 00:57:02,840 --> 00:57:04,000 I hope you can feel it. 416 00:57:07,800 --> 00:57:08,581 You have a beautiful belt. 417 00:57:08,581 --> 00:57:14,070 I mean, I've received a lot of international thank-you letters for him. 418 00:57:42,780 --> 00:57:45,120 It's good, finally. 419 00:57:47,980 --> 00:57:51,819 See, you're really pissed right now. 420 00:57:52,199 --> 00:57:55,413 Yeah, yeah, that's pretty strong. 421 00:58:06,813 --> 00:58:07,938 You're a force, boy. 422 00:58:08,520 --> 00:58:12,049 What do you think my hot-ass wash needs? 423 00:58:44,049 --> 00:58:46,940 Don't worry, I'll catch you later. 424 00:59:12,579 --> 00:59:13,259 Lothar! 425 00:59:13,800 --> 00:59:14,620 Lothar! 426 00:59:36,500 --> 00:59:37,319 I'm coming with you, Nina. 427 00:59:37,379 --> 00:59:38,139 Yes, come on, you know. 428 00:59:38,399 --> 00:59:40,920 I'm coming to you. 429 00:59:41,660 --> 00:59:44,660 I'm going to get a shot. 430 00:59:45,720 --> 00:59:50,300 Oh, Lothar, that's the horn. 431 00:59:52,420 --> 00:59:54,341 Yeah, there's more to it. 432 01:00:12,741 --> 01:00:14,600 Oh, your dick is lonely tip. 433 01:00:15,100 --> 01:00:17,300 You can tell from your hole. 434 01:00:31,779 --> 01:00:34,439 My shipment's about to go, you. 435 01:00:39,959 --> 01:00:43,339 Now, now, get him out, girl. 436 01:00:43,459 --> 01:00:45,660 Pull him out, you'll have more of it. 437 01:00:58,760 --> 01:01:01,040 This might be a party. 438 01:01:03,959 --> 01:01:05,579 Slow down, girls. 439 01:01:06,399 --> 01:01:07,180 Not so strong anymore. 440 01:01:07,800 --> 01:01:10,540 Remember, the boy worked hard. 441 01:01:13,540 --> 01:01:15,139 I'm getting it too. 442 01:01:16,838 --> 01:01:18,573 That's hot! 443 01:01:38,573 --> 01:01:40,043 Hey, did you guys have fun? 444 01:01:40,043 --> 01:01:41,460 I've been around a lot. 445 01:01:45,399 --> 01:01:49,000 You guys may be a bunch, but I'm sorry, I have to pee. 446 01:01:55,000 --> 01:01:57,000 I'm too, peeing is on. 447 01:01:59,000 --> 01:02:21,000 And very quickly, I'm telling you, after every organ transplant, it starts again. 448 01:02:22,000 --> 01:02:24,000 I'm not looking at it anymore. 449 01:02:26,139 --> 01:02:29,100 It's really going on! 450 01:02:32,079 --> 01:02:34,899 January, the new year has begun. 451 01:02:35,079 --> 01:02:36,399 Thank God. Thank you. 452 01:02:37,120 --> 01:02:39,080 I'll be 17 in a few months. 453 01:02:39,600 --> 01:02:40,419 17 of them. 454 01:02:41,440 --> 01:02:43,799 I don't know why I'm so attached to my ageing. 455 01:02:44,079 --> 01:02:47,240 Probably because I hope things will change. 456 01:02:47,380 --> 01:02:48,559 Every year. 457 01:02:49,740 --> 01:02:51,620 There's nothing exciting about it right now. 458 01:02:52,020 --> 01:02:54,960 I've been trying to avoid Lothar and Ellen as best I can since the party. 459 01:02:55,879 --> 01:02:58,039 This whole thing made me sick back then. 460 01:02:59,039 --> 01:03:03,139 On the way home, I kept imagining them hanging out. 461 01:03:03,759 --> 01:03:07,240 I tried to suppress the images and the thoughts, but I couldn't. 462 01:03:08,740 --> 01:03:10,386 I was ashamed at home. 463 01:03:10,886 --> 01:03:13,971 I masturbated that night, though. 464 01:03:14,871 --> 01:03:17,453 I don't think I'm a witch. 465 01:03:17,953 --> 01:03:20,410 I know I long to love physically. 466 01:03:21,410 --> 01:03:23,026 But I don't want to do it under duress. 467 01:03:23,826 --> 01:03:24,770 It must come on its own. 468 01:03:24,770 --> 01:03:26,178 It has to happen. 469 01:03:27,440 --> 01:03:30,659 I believe that it can only be beautiful with real feelings. 470 01:03:31,639 --> 01:03:32,740 I believe in love. 471 01:03:41,299 --> 01:03:44,240 Mom, Mom, what do I look like? 472 01:03:44,639 --> 01:03:45,580 What's going on? 473 01:03:45,720 --> 01:03:47,360 Tell me, what do I look like? 474 01:03:48,200 --> 01:03:49,059 - That's great. 475 01:03:49,600 --> 01:03:50,620 But what do you have? 476 01:03:51,000 --> 01:03:52,460 You're so excited. 477 01:03:53,600 --> 01:03:55,860 You really think I look good? 478 01:03:56,240 --> 01:03:57,980 Oh, Mom, I'm so happy. 479 01:03:59,840 --> 01:04:02,399 It's wonderful, he's wonderful. 480 01:04:02,860 --> 01:04:05,240 Yesterday, November 10, I met Holger. He was a man. 481 01:04:05,740 --> 01:04:09,860 I'm so confused, I don't know whether to laugh or cry. 482 01:04:10,340 --> 01:04:13,620 All I know is I'm happy. 483 01:04:14,019 --> 01:04:15,452 I wish I could be with him forever. 484 01:04:15,452 --> 01:04:19,200 He's what I've probably been dreaming about all along. 485 01:04:19,539 --> 01:04:23,559 He looks too tender, he's too calm, and I feel safe in his presence. 486 01:04:23,899 --> 01:04:26,981 I think I love him. 487 01:04:27,010 --> 01:04:27,901 - What's up? 488 01:04:28,001 --> 01:04:28,892 - What's up? 489 01:04:28,892 --> 01:04:30,284 Where are we going? 490 01:04:30,284 --> 01:04:32,512 I don't know, somewhere. 491 01:04:32,495 --> 01:04:34,069 You want to show me Hamburg? 492 01:04:34,069 --> 01:04:35,606 Yes, I would. 493 01:04:35,606 --> 01:04:36,752 I'm with you. 494 01:04:38,752 --> 01:04:42,200 I could never describe this feeling if I hadn't met him. 495 01:04:42,359 --> 01:04:46,419 The first moment was like it was gonna rip my chest off. 496 01:04:47,158 --> 01:04:49,678 He was just there. 497 01:04:52,197 --> 01:04:56,395 I was sitting in the little cafe where I was with my mom after shopping. 498 01:04:56,695 --> 01:04:58,655 I don't know why I went there. 499 01:04:59,155 --> 01:05:00,996 Maybe I was hoping to see the blind man again. 500 01:05:12,196 --> 01:05:14,606 I'm sorry, your purse fell under it. 501 01:05:17,806 --> 01:05:18,379 Can I sit down? 502 01:05:19,379 --> 01:05:22,035 But I don't want you to feel bothered by me. 503 01:05:22,735 --> 01:05:23,700 Yes, please. 504 01:05:30,500 --> 01:05:31,899 I don't remember what he said. 505 01:05:32,200 --> 01:05:34,440 All I know is he was there. 506 01:05:34,500 --> 01:05:37,940 It's like the ears are going high. 507 01:05:38,200 --> 01:05:39,580 You can't hear any more noise. 508 01:05:39,779 --> 01:05:40,899 No more talking to others. 509 01:05:41,139 --> 01:05:43,659 You forget even the words that affect you. 510 01:05:43,960 --> 01:05:45,419 You look so small. 511 01:05:45,840 --> 01:05:49,079 I just knew his name was Holger. 512 01:05:49,899 --> 01:05:52,513 And I didn't care that he was probably much older. 513 01:07:44,013 --> 01:07:45,700 Look at that blind guy over there. 514 01:07:46,020 --> 01:07:47,159 Yeah, what about him? 515 01:07:47,860 --> 01:07:49,200 I've met him several times. 516 01:07:49,860 --> 01:07:52,940 Do you feel sorry for him? 517 01:07:53,760 --> 01:07:56,940 I imagine how unhappy he must be. 518 01:07:57,039 --> 01:07:58,240 Do you think you can do that? 519 01:07:58,940 --> 01:08:01,120 Yeah, because I'm so happy. 520 01:08:05,460 --> 01:08:06,862 - I'm going to go. 521 01:08:30,862 --> 01:08:33,440 Are you sure your parents won't be coming? 522 01:08:33,559 --> 01:08:35,360 Yes, I'm sure you will. 523 01:08:35,820 --> 01:08:37,480 You wanted me to come with you. 524 01:08:37,840 --> 01:08:39,840 Yeah, I wanted to, didn't you? 525 01:08:40,080 --> 01:08:43,139 Why are you asking? 526 01:08:45,559 --> 01:08:48,080 You don't know anything yet. 527 01:08:51,139 --> 01:08:53,159 I just, I just couldn't tell you yet. 528 01:08:53,299 --> 01:08:55,679 No, not to talk. 529 01:08:56,100 --> 01:08:58,259 I want nothing but you. 530 01:08:58,000 --> 01:09:01,720 You, I want you to love me. 531 01:09:26,820 --> 01:09:30,940 (Music) "What did this love give us? 532 01:09:30,940 --> 01:09:34,639 "What have they done with our lives?..." 533 01:09:35,039 --> 01:09:39,000 "The answer, when will it reach us?" 534 01:09:42,000 --> 01:09:46,559 "The tenderness of the embrace... 535 01:09:47,159 --> 01:09:51,019 "The pain of a bitter experience... 536 01:09:51,619 --> 01:09:56,019 "The memory of it will depart from us". 537 01:10:08,019 --> 01:10:13,960 "Young Love, you have given us so much love". 538 01:10:16,819 --> 01:10:22,679 "Hot Love, the desire to kill you again". 539 01:10:25,020 --> 01:10:29,780 "Young Love, break the bond of love". 540 01:10:33,260 --> 01:10:39,299 "Hot Love, because we both benefit from separation". 541 01:10:41,340 --> 01:10:45,080 "The hope that lived within us". 542 01:10:45,279 --> 01:10:49,079 "The happiness you've been striving for". 543 01:10:49,320 --> 01:10:54,200 "Our guilt has now destroyed everything". 544 01:10:58,119 --> 01:11:01,800 "The love we committed to ourselves, 545 01:11:02,200 --> 01:11:05,078 What's left of it?" 546 01:11:06,079 --> 01:11:10,859 "She was over, she had barely begun... " 547 01:11:23,059 --> 01:11:28,578 "Young Love, you have given us so much luck... " 548 01:11:31,578 --> 01:11:36,978 "Hot Love, the desire to see you again... " 549 01:11:39,578 --> 01:11:45,178 "Young Love, the bond of love is torn... " 550 01:11:48,579 --> 01:11:53,880 "Hot Love, because we both have to part". 551 01:11:56,140 --> 01:12:01,160 "Young Love, we need to break up". 552 01:12:05,219 --> 01:12:11,180 "Hatla, we'll never see each other again"... 553 01:12:13,080 --> 01:12:19,700 "Young Love, but we can never forget"... 554 01:12:21,000 --> 01:12:26,700 "Hot Love, what a wonderful time it was for us". 555 01:12:28,920 --> 01:12:35,019 "Young Love, you have given us so much luck". 556 01:12:37,879 --> 01:12:45,560 "Hot Love, the desire to see you again". 557 01:12:45,780 --> 01:12:52,579 "Young Love, the bond of love is torn". 558 01:12:54,180 --> 01:12:59,599 "Hot Love, three viruses, both must be separated". 559 01:14:02,235 --> 01:14:06,098 If love is something you can feel, I've met it. 560 01:14:06,799 --> 01:14:08,619 How absurd all the problems seemed. 561 01:14:09,259 --> 01:14:11,039 Ellen, Lothar, they were far away. 562 01:14:11,759 --> 01:14:14,200 I was no longer 17, Holger was no longer 38. 563 01:14:15,140 --> 01:14:16,299 We were the same. 564 01:14:16,880 --> 01:14:19,720 A unit deeply connected within us. 565 01:14:20,539 --> 01:14:21,880 That night was not a night. 566 01:14:22,539 --> 01:14:23,400 She wasn't cold. 567 01:14:24,078 --> 01:14:32,222 If a thousand suns can be as warm as a hug born of love, then this universe can never pass. 568 01:14:33,222 --> 01:14:37,553 I think he wanted to tell me from the beginning that he had to leave Hamburg again. 569 01:14:37,553 --> 01:14:40,131 His stay here was only brief. 570 01:14:40,131 --> 01:14:42,826 But I probably didn't want to hear it. 571 01:14:42,926 --> 01:14:44,173 I didn't cry. 572 01:14:44,273 --> 01:14:48,098 I wasn't empty inside, like the kitsch novels. 573 01:14:48,740 --> 01:14:49,599 I was just silent. 574 01:14:50,119 --> 01:14:51,180 Not even unhappy. 575 01:14:51,900 --> 01:14:53,279 I just couldn't believe it. 576 01:14:54,039 --> 01:14:56,480 Holger didn't want me to go to the station to say goodbye. 577 01:14:57,140 --> 01:15:00,539 He said whoever goes away at the farewell party believes the other will come back. 578 01:15:01,180 --> 01:15:02,420 But it won't be like this. 579 01:15:03,000 --> 01:15:04,039 Singapore is far away. 580 01:15:04,759 --> 01:15:06,920 A train, a train station is not far. 581 01:15:07,519 --> 01:15:11,299 But the plane he's going to board is the ultimate consequence. 582 01:15:11,819 --> 01:15:13,799 Why is there love when it hurts so much? 583 01:15:14,240 --> 01:15:16,799 Why is everything over before it starts? 584 01:15:17,339 --> 01:15:19,579 Holger, I know I'll never see you again. 585 01:15:20,240 --> 01:15:23,279 What am I supposed to do? 586 01:15:23,900 --> 01:15:25,519 What am I supposed to write in my diary? 587 01:15:26,380 --> 01:15:27,603 The 20th of November. 588 01:15:28,275 --> 01:15:31,099 I've lost what was so far the most important thing in the world to me. 589 01:15:31,499 --> 01:15:34,060 I'm 17 years old and unhappy. 590 01:15:34,260 --> 01:15:38,350 What else can I write? 591 01:15:40,093 --> 01:15:45,562 On the direct flight to Frankfurt am Main via Cologne, please board and close your doors. 592 01:15:50,000 --> 01:15:51,180 Oh, please excuse me. 593 01:15:51,500 --> 01:15:52,960 Hey, who are we looking at? 594 01:15:55,420 --> 01:15:58,619 What's the matter, my child? 595 01:15:59,140 --> 01:16:00,220 It's all right, I'm sorry. 596 01:16:00,220 --> 01:16:00,920 - I'm not sure. 597 01:16:01,160 --> 01:16:01,480 I'm sorry, please. 598 01:16:02,039 --> 01:16:04,259 You know, that's a voice you're happy about. 599 01:16:04,559 --> 01:16:06,039 I hope you're all right. 600 01:16:06,200 --> 01:16:09,119 Oh, yeah, I can travel. 601 01:16:09,479 --> 01:16:11,079 I'm going back to my homeland. 602 01:16:10,999 --> 01:16:13,719 I wish you all the best. 603 01:16:14,020 --> 01:16:15,440 Thank you, my child. 604 01:16:15,440 --> 01:16:16,558 I'll see you later. 605 01:16:19,059 --> 01:16:21,220 That's not going to be possible. 606 01:16:33,220 --> 01:16:35,098 I'm not happy. 607 01:16:36,499 --> 01:16:38,500 He, the blind-seeker, is the lucky one. 608 01:16:39,019 --> 01:16:40,119 It's crazy, you know. 609 01:16:39,920 --> 01:16:41,720 What's happy? 610 01:16:41,700 --> 01:16:43,519 What's unhappy? 611 01:16:43,539 --> 01:16:45,259 Who's gonna record that? 612 01:16:45,119 --> 01:16:46,980 I'm 17 years old. 613 01:16:46,980 --> 01:16:48,400 I'm not Ellen. 614 01:16:48,380 --> 01:16:50,099 I'm not Lothar. 615 01:16:49,740 --> 01:16:51,400 I'm alive, you know. 616 01:16:51,240 --> 01:16:53,220 I'm 17 years old. 617 01:16:52,880 --> 01:16:54,579 I see. 618 01:16:54,480 --> 01:16:56,119 I'm not blind. 619 01:16:55,759 --> 01:16:57,500 I can feel it. 620 01:16:57,359 --> 01:16:58,819 What is a day? 621 01:16:58,640 --> 01:17:01,400 What's a week? 622 01:17:01,579 --> 01:17:03,279 She's the life. 623 01:17:03,559 --> 01:17:06,119 But life has many days. 624 01:17:06,900 --> 01:17:59,880 One of them starts today.